One Of Those Days

Hello readers,

Am having one of those days that you wish you weren't home! Yeah today is that day for me. I have been wanting me to scream today and its seems to be just another time of my life am having to swollow shit and get on with the rest of my life.

How often can someone swallow the shit? I mean my life is hard as it is and the last thing you need is someone throwing the shit straight at me.  I have always wished to be one of those people who travel all around the world, talking to readers, doing films and just generally being me.  I dream about those times, because sometimes I would rather be that person.

I keep wishing I will wake up some day and all my hard work an fighting has gotten me somewhere. I don't dream all that big, hell heaven to me would be at the Romantic Times next year.  Having a drink with Sandy or Sherri, while Tina is flounding around waiting for me to drop something about her Werewolf Norse God Fernier. 

To meet Jimmy Thomas and shake his hand for giving me cover pictures that are proud of.  Maybe some day I will walk into Adrian Paul and say 'hi, thanks for inspiring me when times were so dark I didn't think there was anything that can inspire me out of this one.' Being able to hand him his signed copy of my heart felt 'A Heart Trapped Inside A Highlander' story and maybe even talk to him about it.   To shake hands with Tim and say thank you for editing my work and giving me something I can shout about from the roof tops. 

Give Gina a huge hug and say 'thank you for giving me hope with my writing and maybe giving me a chance at being a star'.  Those people have all ready shown me so much and given me so hope when I was starting to give up. 

Standing next to Mahalia and be able to say 'thanks for the pointers' and to be a real part of a group who are just all amazing.  To hug Denyse and Dre for making me smile when am pulling my hair out, because I can't write or feeling so frustrated that I just need a good scream.

XOXO Publishing has really become like my online family, all together we are just one huge family who I have to say are genuis's at what we do.  I feel proud to call XOXO Publishing my home.  I have had some hard times this last year and am the first person to be on the top of the roof tops shouting "PLEASE LET THIS YEAR BE OVER ALL READY!!" 

I wanted to write this blog tonight, because I feel angry and frustrated with my life. There isn't anything real new with that other then the fact my longing to travell is so bad am thinking of hiding in Drea's or Denyse's suitcase so I can terrorise the RT conference or wherever we need to be next year. 

I will sign off now, because I have a young Immortal screaming at me that she needs her story told. So I will go off now.  Thank you again, XOXO Publishing for giving my dreams back,

Kristal McKerrington.