I have just started to realise that maybe I can have the dreams that I have been hanging onto by the very ends of my fingernails for most of my life. I started some of my writing idea's years ago. I started to have idea's for what I saw myself writing back when I was just ten. I was told I couldn't be a writer. I was told to get a proper career because, that was what I needed to live on. I couldn't have been more wrong to have listened to the adults that told me that. For four years of my life, I was miserable and hated what I was stuck in.
Then last year I started to write. I took the dream that had sat in my closet for so long and I started to live it. It wasn't my overall dream because, that was to fall in love, have the man of my dreams ask me to marry me and to have the children I had always envisioned in my mind. This dream that I wanted though to be the writer that brought people inspiration. The same inspiration I needed when I was younger to survive my life.
As many of you know that reads my blogs, that watches my Video's never realised this but, the first book I released was such a mess I was ashamed of it. I felt conned, betrayed and hurt by it but, I couldn't let myself give up so I pulled it together and then started the Fire book. I had the idea for a while and when I finished it recently it felt great. I was so glad to have done it. Now am looking forward to the next one.
Although that isn't the biggest part of my writing dream. I wanted to be the one to set Shetland apart from the places I had stayed. I have every reason to hate the Island but, I also have every reason to love it. That is why I wrote the TV script of a lifetime. This took me about 11 years to get to the point that its now on paper. I didn't want to write down all the things I had been holding onto until I could see that there was an actor out there that would be good enough to make Aaron come to life. To be able to know what he would do in every situation, to just become him. I think I have found that person. I also believe I've found his best friend who was someone else I didn't think would be able to be filled by the actors I was seeing. I was so wrong.
I have found not only that person. I never thought that I'd find the person I could trust to direct it. I have also found the person that I can trust to do that. I know that the first season is flowing out of me now. I know that when I present this person with my huge information, Episodes packet then I know there is a huge chance that they might reject this but, if they do then it will never seen the light of day. 'Island of Lies' is something that could show off the bountifulness of the Island yet the audience would be caught up there while, I powerful storyline would tie them up in ribbons of words and feelings. I hope that its good enough for them.
It would make sure that I have achieved my dream by the first step into the water. I will make sure that its not the last. I have strict terms on the contract movie rights to all my books which, means that if my new book is famous then I will at least see it the way that I want it. I just want to keep writing now that I have started and I hope that through being open an somehow honest with my readers that it will help to keep my dreams alive.
Here is the link that will take you to me doing the voice over part of 'Island Of Lies' to give you a chance to hear what I sound like reading it. I hope that it stirs something up inside of you. Please let me know what you think. If you love it then please tell me, tell your friends, hell even twitter your thoughts. I was going to say how it was you should tell that you love this but, then I don't want to upset the three that I believe I can trust with this. To trust them with this is taking alot. I just hope they can see something special in it. I hope you can too. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkBvWtjVHoQ
I will leave you now to hear my entry and to see if you love it just as much as I do.