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Chapter 1
August
26th
Dear
Diary,
I
guess I never thought I’d be the one to be writing down my
thoughts, however in a few short days my sister is about to out every
secret we ever created. I’m on my flight, while I write, from LA to
Aberdeen, Scotland to hide. I’m taking the high road and I’m
entering into the belly of the beast. I’m about to come face to
face with the city where my life really started.
Aberdeen
is just full of 217,120
people exactly. I Google, I’m not my sister, just spouting figures
without checking. I guess you can say this is the difference between
the two of us. I’m flying to the one place where I saw so much,
learned lessons I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy and it’s the
only place I’m going to be safe. Well if you exclude my father who
still lives there.
After
almost seven years I’m returning home.
Derek
and I,
are shooting the video for the Tourist Board and we are tacking
something far greater. We are getting away from all the rules we live
under in LA to be together. We still respect a lot of my mentor’s
rules.
Kayla.
My
mad mentor who didn’t have any tact. You see we learned to really
be dancers when Layla and I touched down in the hub of the Scottish
oil industry. We learned what it meant to really entertain people and
what it took to take people’s breath away. We learned under the
hand of our fallen best friend. We miss Kayla, even now I’m tearing
up with the idea of her not being alive anymore.
In
Aberdeen there are even more secrets hiding behind gravestones and in
the stones which hold this city up. We created so many stories here
and this is the place we called home for so long. Every member of the
Aberdeen’s community knows us, treats us like superstars.
This
is my homecoming... Let’s hope this time I’m not going to end up
married or in the hospital. Long story, I’m sure your all about to
learn.
Later
Diary…
Being
back in Aberdeen made Marie’s stomach twist up. She held a rucksack
over her back, while she dragged her suitcase behind her. She made
her way out of the International Airport with a lengthening step. She
kept her eyes hidden behind the safety of her sunglasses. Her heart
beat in time with the music blasting through her headphones.
People
rushed past her, they went about with their lives and for a moment
Marie soaked up being on the threshold of the landmark place in her
own history. She stood in the small airport which hadn’t changed a
bit and felt her heart race even faster. She stared at the people
always in a rush to get somewhere.
No
bigger feeling of coming home than this. For Aberdeen offered no
bigger reminder of the need to work and to achieve a dream. For she
wanted to return a hero, a superstar. Standing here Marie questioned
whether she had done that yet.
The
place bred drive and challenged its citizens to go after their
dreams. Seeing it like it used to be hit her hard and knocked the air
out of her chest. She hadn’t thought she’d ever return here. Not
when things were about to change so drastically. Her entire world
would turn upside down and she’d become lost in it all soon. There
wasn’t anything she could do.
She
paused, thinking about how Layla’s book would change all of this.
Her twin looked to take away the veils of everyone’s worlds,
secrets. Tucking her hands into her back pockets, Marie hoped from
here she might find a way to survive it all.
Up
to this moment she did all she could to stay away from Aberdeen, yet
this place got inside her skin and tore her back. Marie fought the
greatest desire to run back onto another plane and leave here, but
she knew when the news broke of her past, here would be the safest
place for her to be. She fought a hard battle to not give into it.
People
didn’t know the full story of why she took off out of here when she
did. She wore the scars and reminders of what happened here. Her eyes
teared up when she looked at the lines of taxis. The signs for
Scotland and places she often visited when she trained, competed in
dance battles. Created something good.
She
knew what went on here couldn’t happen again, history couldn’t be
allowed to repeat itself. Marie knew despite everything she couldn’t
let her husband back into her life. She lost two men she loved dearly
here. Marie still didn’t know why her husband took off into the
dead of the night. She remembered painfully now and she wiped at her
tears.
“Marie.”
A strong male voice broke into her thoughts and she remembered his
warning. The reason why she must return here and do what she got paid
to do. She couldn’t help seeing her ex-husband in her mind though.
His face the moment he told her he loved her and how she used to
believe this would all be okay. The way he stroked her cheek, one
last time...
Derek
warned her about how they had to do this and they looked to change
the way things were, by leading the way. Dancers were stubborn and
soon her dance world would be over for good. Layla would see to it
when her book came out, and the world would know what mistakes Marie
had made. She had wondered how they’d look at her if her secrets
ever came out, and now Marie would get an answer to this question.
She
held one away from even her twin sister, yet somehow she knew this
secret would be coughed up in the book which was designed to make the
dance world choose. Make them choose between the old ways and the new
ones. Layla made them choose and ended the careers of those who’d
spent their entire lives dancing.
Her
worst secret of all stalked the world out there delighting her
enemies who knew it. They rejoiced in what he did to her years ago.
His persecution of her
haunted her every night when she closed her eyes and went to sleep.
She rubbed her face and she waited for the panic to pass. Her
ex-husband made her panic, he got inside her head and he made her
feel weak. She knew around him she was. Every time she thought of
herself with him, her heart beat hard and her lips parted on
instinct.
Her
twin sister Layla wrote a book exposing the power of romance in
wrestling and also went a stage further. Layla exposed the sexual
blackmail which went on at WWIC. If only she knew what else went on
inside the company. Layla only just started to unravel the threads,
the curtains surrounding the worse secrets. Ones Marie wished she
didn’t know.
Marie
knew a little bit more than her sister did and she needed to keep
this from her twin. The weight of her secrets almost crushed her
every single day. She couldn’t give her sister the burdens she
needed to carry or the life she was forced to live.
Most
people didn’t want to be on the road, flying, working and then
coming home. Marie had to be on the road, it kept her away from him
and away from the temptation to do the wrong thing.
Layla
left her dance world behind her and went after a dream to help them,
their ideals, old friends. To get to the truth about something which
should have been left in the past. Marie even heard her speech about
how she did this for their father. To stop him from ever having to
return to wrestling.
Marie
knew her book did something else. It at some point would force their
father back to the ring. For he wasn’t going to allow them to pay
for his sins against the oldest form of sports entertainment. She
knew he started this. He did so out of good intentions, however those
good intentions cost them all something. She refused to forgive him.
Layla
did this for those she considered more important than those who stood
by her after their mother died. The truth be told, her dance crew got
them through so many dark moments in their lives. When their father
took off and when their mother passed, they had no one. The dance
crews stepped up. Never made them be alone or face anything without
having their backs.
The
beating Marie endured at the hands of four mystery men, riled them up
and they stood behind her. When she went through rehab, when leaving
clubs made her break out in cold sweats, they stood behind her. Even
when she took off to the United States with her twin sister, they had
her back and they never made her feel alone.
Marie
knew who the four men who gave her the beating were and just never
told anyone. She knew why they’d done what they did. She even found
herself forgiving one of them. After all, she took what should have
been given to her father. For she’d rather wear the scars they left
behind than him. For she made a promise to her mother to take care of
him above everything else. This is what she did.
Yet
Layla went to help the men they met back when the men roamed the
independent wrestling scene. The only time when their two worlds
crossed paths. Crossing paths with them and seeing how they treated
each other, gave her insight she never expected to have. It made her
see them in a whole other light.
Marie
understood why Layla wanted put them back on the top of the wrestling
world. Her plan didn’t sit well with Marie as she couldn’t be
there to protect her sister. She always wanted to be there for her.
Not only that, Marie knew if Layla ever made her way to WWIC
she’d have no other choice, but to return. She needed to protect
Layla against her ex-husband.
Her
twin sister went one stage further when she exposed Marie’s life to
the world. The bitter taste of betrayal still hadn’t left her
mouth. She thought the one person her sister wouldn’t turn on, she
did. Marie hated how she needed to learn about the contents of the
book just four days before its scheduled release. The book still sat
in her bag.
Marie
knew the reactions the dance world already had towards her sister’s
new attempt at finding herself. Layla never faced the consequences of
her actions, rather Marie took them for her. For she feared her twin
wasn’t ever going to be strong enough to handle them. She feared
her sister having a breakdown a lot. Now Marie saw another beating in
her future.
Already
she battled the dance world just to hold onto the ground she earned.
What hurt her more, she knew what was fact and what wasn’t amongst
the secrets Layla wrote about. She wished her sister had asked her
about it rather than just write what she thought she knew.
The
dance world no longer remembered the hard work they put in. The dance
crews, fans just remembered the insane dives that made up their dance
battlers, the nights when they reached the peak of the storylines
that Marie created. For she was the only writer whom Kayla could use
and the one a lot dancers depended on. The injuries the pair endured
and now the betrayal Layla did to their world. The dance world
forgotten how the two of them helped them out of a difficult
situation years ago.
They
allowed their own form of Street Dance to keep on living. Marie and
Layla took it to the United States where they watched it take life.
They discovered they needed to branch out to keep the dance world
alive and they did so, much to the shock of those still scratching
away within it.
Times
had certainly changed.
Coming
out of the airport Marie tried to keep fighting off the urge to run
away. The urge grew with each passing minute. When she stepped out
into the cool Scottish air, where she got the idea of where she must
go to clear her head. She thought about this city too much, and the
history it held never left her. Their city thrived on history.
Marie
hadn’t known love until she met her ex-husband here. He came into
her life like a series of fireworks. She went head to head against
him and found herself unable to resist him. He made each night with
her an adventure. Marie soon learned about his dark side and what he
could do with his mind.
She
spent years trying to heal up the hole he left behind in her chest
when he disappeared in the dead of night. Only being here didn’t
help her heal, it made her hole in her chest open up again. There
were constant reminders here of what of she didn’t do or what she
should have done. It shrunk a little when they left here and Marie
started to feel like she could breathe. When she put thousands of
miles between her and this city. She started to make noise in
Glasgow, Edinburgh, London before taking over parts of LA. Making him
remember who she was and what they once shared.
Marie
use to find notes in her hotel rooms from him and he reminded her
just how he never forgot her. He made her want to succeed to just
show him she wasn’t weak and could stand on her own two feet. She
knew without him, she’d be nothing. It drove her mad.
Nothing
made her forget the man who tore into her life, took it over and left
her without any reason. A dark shadow over her life and she knew this
shadow well. He still walked around the United States and refused her
desperate attempts at ending what they once shared. Marie tried to
break free of her ex-husband, but couldn’t.
He
changed his number and told her she couldn’t be a part of his life
yet wouldn’t give her a divorce. Marie knew this was part of the
mind games he played with her. He told her he did this to protect her
and make sure she didn’t hurt anymore. Yet being without him made
her hurt, tore her apart and made her hate him more. Only she
couldn’t really hate him, she loved him and couldn’t ever deny
it.
Derek
did his best to pick up the pieces after her ex-husband left her. He
didn’t know what went on between her and him. He didn’t even know
she was married, he just knew the man she’d been dating in secret
tore her apart. Made her more bitter, driven and determined.
He
just loved her either way.
The
two made themselves stars, but they didn’t forget about those they
left behind them. They helped and allowed them to get the leg up to
make a name for themselves. Marie gave back with Amber and Derek more
than any dancer before them. She made the pop come to the dance world
again. The dance world reviled the likes of Channing Tatum’s
success with Step Up.
She felt proud to see the dance world grow. They were just as hungry
as she remained.
Now
LA, New York and London felt the waves of the crews Marie used to
work with and knew their names. She saw the places they set alight
and saw the clubs welcome the dancers back into their folds. The
stunts were just as impressive and the dancers loved the performances
just as much. They chanted their names when they took over places
like Jump Off or
Circles.
Amber
ran her studio out of LA and she worked with entertainment companies
all over the world. Her dancers remained the best and now Marie got
sent out on projects by her best friend. One night changed Amber’s
life and soon after it changed all of theirs. It formed a bond
between them which words failed to express.
Nothing
fazed Marie and she even accepted how one conversation can change
people’s lives. She existed as proof of what could happen with just
one conversation. Part of her knew her father wouldn’t ever forgive
her for the marriage she walked into willingly. She knew her father
wouldn’t ever be able to accept that she loved the man he hated.
Marie
did whatever she thought was the best thing for the dance world. She
knew she carried heat on her when she did the one thing they
considered the biggest no-no. The decision she made that night told
her she needed to put distance between herself and those who were on
the same level as her in dance. She went one step further when she
put distance herself from all the men in her life.
No
one forgot a single detail of the night when they felt like she
stepped over the line and stopped being one of the original dancers.
She went up to the man who was considered the man in wrestling. Marie
wanted to show the dance and wrestling world just how strong she was
and instead ended up in his bed. His plaything. He controlled her
life now. Whether she liked it or not, he did.
The
owner of WWIC didn't just control WWIC he owned Marie.
Coming
closer to the taxi she rested her arms on the straps of her backpack
and she stared at the future she saw before her. Marie tried to run
from Layla’s book. She came back to the only place she felt strong
enough to face the aftermath.
Marie
also knew it wouldn’t be long before WWIC,
the biggest wrestling company in the world, picked up on the twin
link. For she knew her twin sister would be signed with them by the
end of the week. She knew Layla wouldn’t resist the bright lights,
the calling of the road and challenges which came with being a WWIC
superstar.
After
all she knew her sister better than anyone else.
Marie
knew her time in the dance world would be done because they broke
some rules she didn’t understand and knew they weren’t going to
take it lying down. The rebellion would be started if she didn’t
leave and she refused to kill Amber’s studio because of her
sister’s actions.
When
the book came out she knew the former dancers turned wrestlers would
come looking for her.
She
already heard rumours coming from Amber’s studio. The social media
was alive with talk of Layla signing at WWIC.
Marie waited for her sister to text her to confirm she had.
She
also heard about her sister trying to get Amber to book Marie on the
film. The film her ex-husband had decided to make off Layla's book.
Pre-sales had been that high.
Marie wasn't sure she could bare
being the star of the adaptation. Amber stood by Marie’s decision
to stay away from it until there wasn’t any other choice. She
couldn’t handle having her heart ripped out again.
Going
to the film set Marie knew that she would get her heart destroyed.
Not just by having to leave the dance world for good, but she’d
come face-to-face with the man who took her heart from her.
Marie
held out, wanting Layla to ask her, and had her own reasons for doing
so. The longer she kept away from the wrestling world the better.
Especially with her dark shadow following her.
If
her sister revealed or found out this part of her life, nothing would
ever be the same again. Marie knew right now she mentioned it in the
book as a rumour. Layla would soon enough find out its truth.
For
she knew her ex-husband would take great pride in telling her sister.
What
this might do to her father made her almost want to tell Layla,
however she wasn’t twisted enough to do that to him. Part of her
still cared about her father and wanted him to be proud of her.
She
had always known the time would come when she’d be forced to tell
her father the truth. Out her own secret and to end the mystery once
and for all. Marie knew her father had a pretty good idea, but he
wanted to hear it from her. She’d need to answer his calls and face
the man who left her too.
Her
father abandoned her just as much as her husband had.
Marie
clung to the outskirts of the dance world and the entertainment world
when pre-sales and promotions for the release of Layla’s book
started to create more mayhem with each passing day.
Marie
knew Layla had not thought for a single second what it might be like
in the world of hard-hitting, larger-than-life characters with baby
oil and Spandex.
Most
of Marie knew Layla could guess, after all when she danced, dived off
things and were held in death-defying lifts she got a small taste of
it.
Marie
hadn’t forgotten those times when she felt her own shoulder
dislocate, the night she heard her neck snapped, the instant she hit
the floor wrong or the pain she endured when things fell apart. They
both bounced off the bar or the DJ booth and threw themselves into
the arms of danger constantly.
Marie
didn’t want to enter the world she’d loved as a teenager. For she
knew now she couldn’t lie to herself anymore. She’d be forced to
take her rightful title and face the bed she made for herself. After
all she couldn’t be his wife and the whole industry not know.
A
precept got passed around the dancers who’d trained with her old
mentor Kayla. The head of her first dance crew and a woman of great
strength. A woman who looked to keep her friends safe and alive
through the art of dance. Even if it didn’t go quite as planned.
She remembered her mentor’s rules well, she worked hard to keep
those rules and teachings alive.
Marie
witnessed too many broken necks and accidents not to want her
mentor’s teaching to stay alive. She believed they should be passed
on even if she broke them herself. What made her different to all the
others is she did so for her own heart. She paid the price for it.
‘Never
meet those you idealise as they can never live up to what you dream
them to be.’
A
concept by which Marie now lived her life, and the idea of meeting
those her sister now worked with made her giddy inside, yet scared
her half to death. For one of the men she watched on TV took great
pleasure in using her and ripping her heart out.
She
wasn’t foolish enough to expect them to be like she dreamt them to
be. Marie thought he might be different though. For a while she’d
been right, until he packed his bag in the middle of the night. He’d
even slipped her a sleeping pill to make sure she’d not wake while
he left her.
She
also saw the pitfalls her twin couldn’t see and she remembered her
earliest interactions with wrestlers. They had marked her memory for
the rest of time. Their desires to just sleep with women made her
almost sick. They’d do whatever it took. Like they battled for a
championship or another notch on their belt.
It
made her glad to be with the man she now called her own. To know
those days sat firmly behind her. She lived and learned the hard way.
Not that any of them knew. Soon they were to know every detail.
No
matter what Marie told herself, she knew the men they met back in
England weren’t the same men who walked WWIC’s
hallways. They changed just like she and her crew had.
Nothing
stands still forever.
She
knew for better or worse she’d rather have the memory of those
fun-loving men they met, rather than the men they’d become.
She
saw snippets of what they’d become when she crossed paths with her
ex-husband. She never forgot how Jay took great pleasure in telling
her Harold had slept with another woman the night before they got
married.
Jay
used to be a dancer who trained under Kayla, he turned his back on
her when she told him she didn’t think he had what it took to make
it.
The
lights of wrestling screamed to him and he left the dance world to go
train in a wrestling school in Chicago. Jay humiliated Marie on his
way out of the door. He did so to get his own back on her, for all
the years she rejected him.
Marie's
own wars with those from the wrestling world reminded her of how many
mistakes she’d made. Every single one of them left a scar on her.
Her dark shadow made sure to remind her every single day what he had
with her and what they would one day have again.
If
things were different. Marie wasn’t sure if she wanted things to be
different anymore.
The
man she now made her life with, was someone who must remain a secret
for his own safety, or at least this was the lie she told him. Marie
feared what Harold might do if he ever found out about Derek.
She
knew she used this as an excuse to protect herself against further
heartache.
Marie
knew Harold couldn’t find out about Derek, because if he did then
Harold would return to her life. She couldn’t avoid it. Part of her
wanted to see the same hurt in his eyes that he made her feel.
She
did whatever it took to keep their dreams alive and they got to be
the people the other dancers believed in. To the outside world Derek
and Marie looked like the best dance partners in the world. They were
never a step out of tune and they could do stunts at any place, at
any time. They were magic on the dance floor.
The
films and the commercials, TV shows they did together, though, made
Marie fall for Derek more. He’d always loved her, but being with
her and not being out in public killed him.
She
knew it.
Even
if they must keep all of it a secret. Marie wanted to take him out
and show him off, she just didn’t want to risk him getting hurt.
They
were lovers by night and professional colleagues during the day. They
shared a novel’s dream love story. One which started with how they
couldn’t be together and ended up with them sharing each other’s
heart and soul.
“Where
to, Miss?” Asked the familiar-accented man. The accent drew a
distant smile to her lips. She’d missed the accents and the smells
of this city. The place she’d often called home and lived her life
by.
The
one place she came back to and became instantly famous all over
again. The city named her their own, after her career exploded. Not
one of them forgot about the dance stuff she did here.
They
looked forward to her returning to show the world how proud they were
of her. She always felt like somewhere they finally understood her.
She’d
always kept this close to her heart.
“Wait,
you’re Marie Susan aren’t you?” The taxi driver asked when she
removed her sunglasses and pulled down her hood. Marie hadn't heard
her mother's surname with her name in so long.
The
electric energy flowed through him and into her just like the old
days. She fed off it as he tanked around the car. He pulled out his
note book and held it out towards her. She instantly knew what he
wanted before the words left his mouth.
“Please
can I have an autograph?” He asked like an excited child on
Christmas day.
“Yes
of course and I’m Marie. Do you think you can take me to the sea
front?” She asked and his eyes lit up. She introduced herself just
in case he thought she might be Layla. After all, the twin looks
extended to their dark hair, the way they held themselves along with
the similar facial features they shared.
Quirks
even but that was was here the similarities ended.
A
frequent mistake everyone made, even if they called her by the right
name. She saw so many of their faces drop when she wrote the name
Marie. She always checked now.
Even
after Layla turned her back on them all, she still got to be a loved
icon of Aberdeen, Scotland.
The
sea front, the place Marie wanted to make her way to now, held the
cinema and a retail park. It overlooked the North Sea. This is where
they came to train, pig out and just be herself. Today she used it as
a place to get away from the world.
The
one part of the world she never got sick of seeing and often wanted
to sail on. The roughest sea at times surrounded Aberdeen. It made
her believe in myths otherwise shoved to one side. Sometimes she
travelled north to Shetland where she trained their islanders.
She
saw the icebergs which made it down around the Islands. If she timed
her trips to the Shetland Islands just right, she saw whales rushing
along the sides of the ferry. They were blue whales and sometimes
Seals. The wild life welcomed the islanders and those who visited its
rocky shore.
The
Island which wasn’t very forgiving.
Marie
loved her myths and legends, it helped her to create new dance
characters. When she worked on shows or films, she allowed herself to
believe the characters were real in order to sell them.
She
knew the one character who wouldn’t ever leave her was the dance
character she created her character out of nothing. People either
liked her for it or hated her.
She
often tried to teach these skills to up and coming dancers who
performed all around her. None of them got what it meant to be a
dancer anymore.
They
only saw the tricks, the moves, and she worried about how this would
affect the future of their art form. Whether it would survive if they
didn’t get how important characters were. How they must animate
their faces and bodies to make the people around them believe in what
they tried to tell them.
People
like her rival Jay, who tried to keep these secrets close to his
chest so the nightclub and dance promoters were more likely to book
him more than the new dancers. She hated him for more reasons than
just his lack of teaching ability with the up and coming dancers.
“Of
course it would be an honour,” the taxi driver responded and she
signed his notebook before slipping into his black cab.
Her
heart started to beat fast as they took off through the city and her
mind fell into the rhythm of her music. She thought about the dance
material which she must complete during her stay here. She felt rusty
and hated the feeling.
Marie
planned on tearing one particular place apart again
during her stay here. The locals expected her to turn up at one of
their nightclubs. A trademark both she and Layla created. She felt
like now was the time to keep traditions alive.
She
returned Marie remembered how being in this particular club made her
realise something about her ex-husband. It didn’t matter what he
said to her or did, because they were good in bed together. She could
take to the grave the knowledge of how she made him weak there. Made
him beg and plead for her. This made her smile and helped her get
through the day sometimes.
After losing him and having her
father tell her she wasn’t his daughter anymore, she needed
something simple. Nothing felt more simple than the sex the two of
them created together. She knew these would be the sort of thoughts
which would destroy her and Derek. Marie needed these thoughts. For
she must face a lot in the coming days.
She
knew just how
important it was to shake her dance rust off. With the eyes of the
world about to fall back on her, she couldn’t afford to be rusty.
Marie needed to be on the top of her game and more ruthless than
ever. After all she was the bad twin.
The
place just happened to be her old stomping grounds with Derek and the
other dancers. She knew they waited for her. Before she touched down
in Aberdeen’s International Airport they tweeted her to let her
know just how welcome she’d be. They liked to extend an invite to
her, because they knew what she and her sister did for the nightclub
during their dance battles days.
When
the clubs use to battle over the dancers back in the ’90s and early
2000s. The war still continued on, just not as passionately or as
cut-throat.
In
this very nightclub she did her tripled bar dive, gaining her one of
the highest marks of honour from a visiting dance crew. She got known
as the woman who could create a dive anywhere and be the best dancer
in the world. Marie made a point in living up to this title, no
matter what it cost her.
Espionage,
Aberdeen remained the
hottest nightclub they’d ever attended. She liked to give back and
a small dance-off in
Union Street came to
her mind. As a mix of music flowed through her headphones and she
felt grateful for this city again. Her mind became alive with ideas.
She
missed just feeling free and here she got to be free. When she roamed
the United Sates she feared meeting the only man left alive who knew
what it meant to hold her in the middle of the night. To feel her
shudder underneath him and to be all his. When she confessed her
feelings to him.
The
only person she allowed her guard down around outside the dance
industry. He held all the power to destroy her if he so wished it.
The
only other wrestler to know her intimately never got to know what she
felt like in his sheets or to hear her call his name. She lived
almost in regret for giving anyone this kind of power to anyone.
Here
in Aberdeen they always showed her respect by knowing not to hassle
her when her headphones were on her head and they allowed her to be
herself. They always respected her.
When
she did dance stunts here they welcomed the stuff she did with open
arms and even the police just shook their heads at her. They never
bothered her and she watched them with a smile on her face. Once the
police officers even took part. She got away with far too much here
and loved them for it. She saw places where she had pushed the
boundaries, as the taxi moved through the city.
Victoria’s
Park is where she did her first dance lift and almost knocked herself
out on a low-laying tree branch. The place where she battled her
mentor for the first time and where the storyline between Jay, Kayla,
Derek started.
In
the middle of the park is where they asked her to join the crew and
she threw her head back in laughter. She turned evil there and she
made her character one of the craziest of all time.
Union
Street is where she learned what it took to hold an innocent dance
audience's attention during their performance.
In
the square, shopping centres, at the church they danced. They made a
life for themselves. They brought the city to life.
The
taxi stopped next to her sister’s billboard where her book stared
down onto the passes by and told them to buy Layla's book. It sat at
the heart of the city. The place where they used to stand and promise
each other to one day be on the billboard.
Marie
stared at the billboard when they moved by it. She saw her standing
there in her lacy black underwear with Edward standing on one side
and Derek on the other. Her head turned over her shoulder to look at
the camera.
She
lent herself and her fame to help her sister’s book sell. Marie
never imagined this.
The
story where none of Marie’s secrets were left secret. She still
couldn’t wrap her head around why her sister would do something
like this to her. She wouldn’t know until her sister needed her
help.
Edward
was the former dancing groupie. He always wrestled and he attended
their dance stuff out of interest. She got entangled with him when
they’d been younger. He never let her forget it. Leaving her
tickets at her hotels when they performed or worked the same towns.
She never showed up, knowing how he’d treat her.
Moving
through the city she saw her face on the other billboards and it made
her warm inside. Standing in her dance gear, with the information
below about Amber’s and their dance studio. It must have stood
there for years and not one of the locals let the advert be replaced
by something else.
A
fuzzy feeling almost took over her, watching her image appearing in
certain spots throughout the city. The city held more love than pain
for her sometimes, as long as she allowed her mind to wonder.
She
saw the people cheering when they spotted her going past and she
pulled her hat down over her head, hoping she might just get some
peace before they descended in on her.
This
stood as a reminder just how much love she’d left behind her.
Coming
through the winding streets she even noticed how Union Street seemed
changed and out of this world. She stared at the shops and how the
people were walking around with a different attitude. She’d missed
this and LA still held her hostage. It told her she couldn’t take
her time. She must keep pace with the city which never did anything
slowly.
She
tried to relax. LA had been home for far too long. Marie looked for
the sea front and the concrete pier she wished to sit on.
The
place where she told her first love that she loved him. Where she met
her ex-husband one more time before he disappeared from her life for
what felt like good.
Marie
wanted to let the world drop away from her as she thought about how
life may just change because of the future of Amber’s studio
sitting on her and Derek’s shoulders. Amber looked to them to keep
it afloat as they drew more and more business into the place. Amber
believed without Derek and Marie the place would sink.
Putting
more pressure on Marie as she hoped to put the dance world behind her
years ago, instead she found others holding onto her and demanding
more.
Amber
wondered when the younger dancers were going to start listening to
those who created these chances for them. A thought Marie shared with
her half sister.
Pulling
up at the concrete walkway Marie leaned forward and paid the man the
twenty-five pounds along with a few extra pound coins for his hassle.
She smiled at him making his day as she slipped out of the taxi and
started to walk down the esplanade where she took in the sea. The
cold North Sea wind ripped at her body, making her feel alive.
She
raised her arms out from her sides and allowed the air to catch her.
It felt an embraced from an old friend. For a moment she allowed it
to whip her blood-red and black hair out of her face. She dyed it for
the return home.
The
ginger, blonde and black hair disappeared, she wouldn’t miss it.
Marie caught herself in the reflections of the sea and she wondered
how time had changed her.
Sitting
across the road from
Frankie Bernie’s
she took in her new life. The actress, dancer and the twin sister to
someone who’d lost the rules and morals they’d grown up with. She
dumped her bag down and sat down on it as she dangled her legs off
the end of the esplanade while she wrapped her arms around the
railing.
Watching
the sea coming in and going out. She held onto the railing tighter
and she wished this place could be home again. Her life didn’t
exist here as the leader to the next generation, disappointing wife.
She got to just be Marie. She hated how she wasn’t going to know
this place as she once did.
Marie
missed this view and how it reminded her of the big world out there.
The world she’d wanted to see and conquer. She came close in the
States, and being in the place of flashing lights, fast-paced
lifestyle told her just how hard it was at the top.
Learning
how to make films as an actress, wasn’t easy and she soon found TV
made life harder. She spent her time being stalked by TMZ and talking
to the gossip channels who wanted to understand her move into Reality
TV, which was due to start in the middle of her commercials launch.
She
allowed the cameras into her life and she got a few days off on this
advert before they descended on her again. She knew this TV show was
more about getting back at her ex-husband than it was about fame.
A
small city girl got lost in the flashy lights a long time ago.
The
city may change; she also saw a lot of it still looked the same and
she held onto what it meant to come from here. Aberdeen held onto her
and she saw the same love the people always held for the place around
them. For those who walked the streets and called this place home
once before. She held it in her chest too. No matter where she went
never forgot it.
“Thought
you’d be here,” breathed the voice of the man who’d changed her
life a few years ago when she got left in the middle of the night.
The voice she’d been dying to hear.
He
made her go from being such a free person to being someone caught up
again within rules, her dance rules which Marie once loved and
respected, now hated.
She
didn’t need to turn around to meet his eyes to know she wasn’t
ever going to be completely alone. For however long it lasted she got
to be his.
Marie
almost turned to greet him, however a part of her still felt mad at
the idea of him accepting this Tourism advert contract without
talking to her first. He didn’t know what he’d accepted or what
else he asked her to take on by saying yes for them.
Making
them return every year, like a constant reminder of where they’d
come from. He got why she didn’t want to be here better than
everyone else. He didn’t know the full story on the second part of
the reason why she didn’t want to be here.
They
lost their best friend here when he overdosed...
“Come
on Marie don’t be mad at me, I brought you a coffee.” Derek spoke
and she turned to face him reluctantly.
For
the entire time she travelled here she couldn’t get her hands on a
decent cup of coffee. Her one weakness and she’d need to give it up
for the next few days when they did the dance lifting and performing
parts of the tourism advert. The dance lifts required her to be on
her game. She knew what it took to do some of the fancier dance lifts
perfectly.
“You’ve
got to understand a coffee isn’t going to cut it this time Derek.
This place has a lot of old wounds for me.” Marie breathed when she
accepted the cup and sipped at it.
Derek
slipped into the spot next to her and allowed his legs to hang over
the esplanade. He wrapped his arm around her back and moved closer
towards her. His entire body trying to suck her into its warm
embrace.
“I’ve
got old wounds here too Marie. It’s not about us or what we feel
like we’ve got to do. Aberdeen needs us to do this. Heck Amber
needs us to do this.” Derek shared his rational thoughts, his logic
and what he said made sense. She couldn’t argue with it and when it
came to getting her to do what he wanted, Derek relied on logic,
because it made it harder for her to argue with him.
Marie
saw his logical point and knew Derek was right about this being the
next step in the right direction.
His
baseball hat covered his head and a thick fleece made him look
adorable again as he sat next to her. She’d missed him and a part
of her hated how close they’d gotten.
How
close they were in the past and yet she chose the man she did before
Derek.
“I
thought we’d be done with this.” Marie kept her eyes staring out
at the sea in front of her, knowing if she stared into those big
brown eyes she’d crack.
His
five o’clock shadow started to already creep back onto his face and
his broad shoulders reminded her why she’d got so attached to him.
She’d not admit aloud, she looked to be protected. He never let her
down and she put her life into his hands every time she flew off the
ground.
His
hands were all that connected her to the earth sometimes.
Derek
did far more than just lift or bend her into dangerous lifts. He
opened up her mind and he made her see the world around her. He
challenged her and made her feel less alone. He made her a better
person and made her face her demons. She made him face his and they
were clean together.
They
got close after the death of Robert, their best friend. The first
boyfriend Marie ever had.
Derek
was there when her marriage went down in a ball of flames and they
always feared what might have happened if the two of them hadn’t
been as close.
Derek’s
sister passed on just before Marie’s husband left her and they were
to be bonded together for life. He called on her as much as she had
done with Robert’s death.
They’d
bottled up their grief and when they pushed it into dance, they’d
use it to get through the battles. Storylines came too close to the
bone with what they endured.
Kayla
didn’t miss a chance to turn anything into a story and a dance
battle.
“Is
this about Layla?” He asked and Marie turned to face him. His hand
reached up and stroked her cold cheek with his thick, strong hands.
His eyes casting nothing other than hope and love over her. She knew
she didn’t deserve the look in the depths of those eyes. He always
shared everything with her.
“Sort
of. I’m worried about Layla. I don’t like her being mixed up in
WWIC
without us. We are the only original crew members left.” Marie
tossed her words at him and he took them in.
His
head nodded along with her wisdom and she hated how he refused to
talk about those they lost along this journey.
They
shared everything and this became the reason why they’d lasted
through the dance battles, demons and death. For every Street Dancer
knew what it meant to lose their friends to drugs, alcohol, steroids
or worse things.
Both
Derek and Marie knew the time had come to leave the Street Dancing
world’s circuit. The hardest place where couples broke down due to
lack of trust and the stunts they did. Somehow, after Marie made it
through the heartbreak, she found Derek waiting for her.
“Then
take the film offer and let’s be there,” he suggested with the
light and airy voice. He didn’t understand what this would do to
them if she took it, because she hadn’t told him about her
ex-husband.
She
couldn’t.
How
could she tell him the news which would end them and their world?
He
moved his rucksack so it gave them something to rest against. Slowly
he pulled her into his arms. Being close and able to be themselves
didn’t happen very often. She missed this greatly.
In
LA all of the old crews floated about and they couldn’t be out
together. The LA crews didn’t bond as well as the older ones did.
So the members they worked with ratted everyone out. She watched them
do it first-hand.
If
her ex heard about Derek it wasn’t just the dance world they would
need to fear. They couldn’t be seen to be hanging out together,
period, and only here did they risk it. Here however they could be
together as no one bothered them and none of the other dancers were
around here anymore.
Most
of the dancers moved on when the hype died out after the twins left.
Marie
believed they should have left dance when they went to university.
Instead they took off to new cities and tried to breathe life into
their type of Street Dance. What most of the dancers didn’t know
was Marie and Layla studied in the States.
A
part of her often wondered where she and Derek might be if they had
not sworn to put the others first. She looked at Derek for any signs
he’d been thinking about this too. She doubted it since he stole
her heart after she fought him off for years.
Now
he focused on holding onto her.
A
part of Derek looked out for Jay for he believed he might try to take
her away from him. His need for her managed to sucked her in. Derek
looked after Marie and not just on the floor.
But
In real life.
Better
than anyone else.
“She
hasn’t asked me to be there. If I turn up she’s going to push me
away further, because she’ll think I’m keeping an eye on her.”
Voicing her thoughts about her sister made Marie’s stomach tense,
since they’d been born they had always been close. Life changed
them and the way they lived life together, when Layla started to date
Cameron.
After
her mother died, Marie took a beating and Layla found someone else
she trusted more than her sister.
Layla’s
most recent boyfriend, Cameron somehow made everyone feel like he
flipped Layla’s personality. Like he found some switch hidden
within her and even Amber hadn’t known what made Layla change so
fast.
Amber
always remained their mutual best friend. She knew how Layla worked
and she managed to keep the twins together. When Kayla pushed them to
the brink the pair found a sympathetic woman who suffered at their
mentor’s hands. Kayla’s creative genesis hurt all those who cared
about her or lived near her.
The
whole dance world noticed the change in Marie's and Amber's sister
and worried about Layla collectively. Too many of them already fell
to stupid things, they didn’t want to see another one fall.
Drugs
claimed too many lives and that was just the tip of the iceberg of
what went on. The dives were the least of their worries now. No
matter the past, the dance community stood by each other.
“You’re
as bad as each other. She will call, but you can’t hold the changes
against her, Marie,” Derek advised and though Marie nodded along
with him, she didn’t believe in what he suggested.
Far
from it.
Marie
thought about how she needed to be there to stop the wrestlers from
overwhelming her sister. Using her for whatever sick games they could
think of or the bullying she expected them to use against Layla.
Protecting Layla against herself. This is what Marie spent her entire
life doing.
Kayla
made the rule years ago that they couldn’t do dealings with
wrestlers and stay dancers. She made this rule after one of their
dancers turned up badly hurt by one. She’d been emotionally scarred
and this left a reputation, which shadowed the wrestlers ever since.
A
bad taste got left behind in the mouths of fellow dancers afterwards.
So bad was the after taste that many dancers wouldn’t do
promotional events in bars or nightclubs which supported wrestlers.
Marie
spoke out against these rules and kept pointing out the truth about
the girl in question being a gold digger who got hurt due to her own
needs. She ended up starting a heated series of battles where she was
forced to lose.
A
silent turf war between the two sides. A war none of them wanted any
part of.
Despite
Kayla being dead,. none of them broke the rules she left behind and
none were overturned. They did it out of respect for her memory and
Marie knew what the reactions were to these sorts of situations. She
listened, trying to be a ghost in their world.
Marie
helped build the dance world with her own two bare hands. The art
form she broke her body for and spent days wondering why she fought
for people who were no longer there.
To
see Layla just throw this all away, made a lot of dancers’ angry
and when some of them asked Marie why, she took the brunt of the
anger left behind.
Layla
bred a new level of anger and hate into the situation. She hadn’t
just wanted to turn the wrestling world upside, she made the dance
world feel the same way. She’d completely torn apart everyone who
ever knew her.
Marie
and Derek faced the brunt of what Layla still created in the
aftermath with what snippets of the book had been leaked. Whatever
made Layla, her sister do this Marie almost believed it lay in the
hands of the man, her sister turned her world around for.
Cameron.
He’d
been made a part of the KittyKat dance crew briefly after Layla and
Marie busted their asses to get him in. Marie put her neck on the
line for him. Marie hadn’t done it for him.
She
put everything she processed into it for Layla. She always cared
about her sister’s happiness first and foremost. Even after Marie
treated Layla so badly when their mother passed on. Layla always
meant the world to her and still did. Only she would find out much
later on what Cameron’s deal was and when Derek got involved their
secret almost got exposed.
Being
dance partners didn’t mean they could be lovers. Kayla made a rule
about how dancers couldn’t date, not when they were a part of her
dance crew for it led to many problems. Trust just didn’t exist in
the dance network they worked in.
Kayla
barely managed her childhood romance with Mike and so many times
dancers let her relationship slide, because she’d been the one to
form the dance network in the first place.
They
created the battles and helped to make it something other than
pipe-dream. It breathed its first breathe in Aberdeen.
The
backwaters of Scotland. Only known as the hub and portal to the North
Sea Oil industry.
For
young people it became the place where the best dancers in the UK
came from. Where dancers flew through the air, hung over balconies in
chains, dived off DJ booths and sometimes went through tables, bars.
Marie
and Layla took no prisoners when the twins did the talking pieces of
the dance events. Derek made her fly like she had invisible wings on
her back and Kayla formed teams no one could match. Layla seemed to
bring everything she did to life. The two liked to let the world
around them know what it took to be them.
They
liked to make sure they knew just how far they would go to protect
their titles, reputations and each other. The four of them ran
Scotland.
“Is
this about Cameron?” Derek asked, drawing Marie’s attention back
to the reality around her. She wanted to escape all thoughts of her
sister’s man. The man held too many dark sides to him and she hated
the way he could make Layla always agree with him.
Marie
felt her phone ringing in her pocket and she knew who called her. She
didn’t even need to look anymore. She shook her head before she
rose to her feet. Her words offering a better option.
“I
think it’s time we head back to my place and get ready for
tomorrow.” The look changed on Derek’s face. Marie saw him think
about the chance to be close to her, in a way they hadn’t been for
so long.
“Now
how can I say no to this idea?” Derek picked Marie up into his arms
and for a moment everything seemed right. Light filled her life and
her chest. She thought of not an ounce of darkness or the tests which
lay ahead of her. He lifted her away from her problems.
She
squealed with delight and for a quick moment, Aberdeen just became
its old self again. The safe and happy place they once knew. The
place where they were free.
Dark
thoughts couldn’t be further from their mind as Derek captured
Marie’s lips underneath his. Soaking up every ounce of fun and love
their lives offered them.